Leo Club Formation...

Its an awesome day... It was hard for the organizing committee.. It was really in a mess and I felt like helping them so much.. But I couldn't do anything  much,.. Its like i would get in the way if I butt in.. So i didn't ask if I could do anything... But I enjoyed spending time with my fellow classmates and fellow Leo members... Its awesome to meet new friends in college cause I don't have much time to meet people.. But you guys are awesome Leo Club of Metro Methodist College Kuala Lumpur board of Directors... U guys made it an awesome day although there were quite a few hiccups...

Events with MCKL-ians and with friends...

MIDSUMMER MASQUERADE

A night so different than any other… Everyone all dressed up for the event. So pretty so handsome and so awesome!!! AWESOME MCKL-ians.

♥Pretty girls of S1103β and Miss Charmaine♥
♥Credits to Ivan Tan♥

♥Guys of S1103β and Miss Charmaine♥
♥Credits to Ivan Tan♥

 

 

I Have no idea whose took all these pictures... I guess its just random people whom I wanna give credits to...

S1103β CLASS OF 2011

They are like the most awesome people I’ve ever met… Just the first week and we already know each other.. Now.. We sampat together… We study together… We sakai together… We be awesome together… They are such awesome group of people.. I have fun with them and I love being with them… They are such good friends to be with… Hope we get to spend more time together.. ^^

Awesome...
credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)

Campur campur...
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner)♥

PINKY!!!!!
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)♥

NICE!!!!
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)♥

Physics People.. ^^
♥credits to : jia wen ♥

The best people ever...
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)♥

BEST FRIENDS ♥♥♥♥♥♥

This events are from Pennie’s birthday… Chui Peng’s Birthday…. Grace’s Birthday…

All  and all  a gathering of  friends  for someone special… They are most special people to me as they have spent 5 years of my highschool life with me… some have even been in same class with me for all 5 yrs…  I’m grateful that they are still my friends and I wish our FRIENDSHIP will last forever…. I really love being with them but sometimes roads of life make us take different paths... So we have to follow our goal and own road in life.. But we are always friends...

Grace's birthday..
♥Credits to Eugene Chan♥

 

♥Credits to Ken Ren♥

♥Credits to Wei Lek♥

Messed up...

I kinda felt pressure these few days.. Pressure to think what if I failed to do this?? What if what I do was going to make someone unhappy…?? What if I do that it would make someone one else think differently about me… I really don’t know what I should think about… If I think about you.. would be weird?? Cos u and I aren’t related in any way… I’m just a random friend… Would you be bothered if I’ve gone missing.. I don’t think so… 

But I’ve got more important people and stuff to think about… People who does care for me… when I go missing ad when I am feeling down…

My dear old buddies and my new pals… People who l spends hours a day with me.. Understand me.. trust me... love me(i think)... And know who I really am...  I love these people.. Spending a day with them worth more than anything i have with you... Cause being with you is just a fantasy I think about and it will never be true,, But with my friends.. Its all real and true,..Its all happening.. I appreciate those people being my friends... I will treasure them.. I hope soon I will be able to drop and lock out all the feelings I have which I have no idea when it came to me...

Love Lust Frustration and heartbreak....

There is this thing about LOVE that makes me LOST. I can’t properly think and rationalize….. 

I dunno what is the right thing anymore when it comes to love.. I can’t seem to think properly.. I can’t manage my thoughts at all.. I fall hard when I really fall for a person.. Whenever I get rejected.. I really hurts a lot.. Sometimes… there is this thought of committing suicide.. I know its stupid.. but its just a thought.. I don’t think I’ll be that stupid to do so.. Now again a dilemma… should I or should I not? Whether or not I wanna try to get hurt again? No matter how many times I try, No matter how I change… It still ends up the same… Do I not deserve love from someone or God is still waiting for the right time before he sends me the right person?  Getting hurt and stabbed for almost 5 times in the heart really pains me.. and it caused my heart to be broken so many times.. that now I don’t know how to love anymore.. I don’t know what love is anymore.. I’m really scared..  My heart already turned into stone… Who would be the one to melt it? Who would be the one who would hold the key to unlock my long sealed heart?? 3 years now.. My last relationship that killed my confidence in love.. I chose to believe in you.. But you told me I wasn't good enough for you.. I was too immature.. Is it me or you???  Everyone I know who had loved or who had been loved also has the same conclusion that puppy love never last and it always hurts the most… I remember crying almost every night.. Crying silently.. nobody could hear me.. NOBODY!! not even my best friend.. It is my own little secret.. Even till today... Stress... I cry on my own shoulder... I cry myself.. I have no shoulder to cry on.. I don't know who to voice it out to... I don't have the slightest clue where to go...  I just don't what to do anymore... I can't go on like this anymore.. It hurts.. A LOT... I have been waiting..I will be still be waiting till that day... Lets see when will that day come... 

I wonder sometimes.. if it could just end my life in the next second... I won't have the guts to do it.. why think? crazy me... I'm going mad.. insane i guess... Things I try so hard to do or try to achieve will never be mine unless I let go.. but I have a very heavy heard to let it go.. Can anyone tell me how? No matter how people tend to tell me to let go.. but its not that easy... When I let go.. would I regret it next time?? Would think back and say I shouldn't have let go.. I am LOST...

A less fortunate

I thought i have a bad way to start my life... But after watching this video this morning in chapel.. I realized that there are a lot of people out there who less fortunate... I feeel so ashamed... I have to work hard.. and stop complaining...
To achieve my goal.. I will strive harder to be the best..... God will do the rest if we give our best...



"Nella Fantasia"

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo giusto,
Li tutti vivono in pace e in onestà.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo chiaro,
Li anche la notte è meno oscura.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano.

Nella fantasia esiste un vento caldo,
Che soffia sulle città, come amico.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien' d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

[English translation:]

In my fantasy I see a just world
Where everyone lives in peace and honesty
I dream of a place to live that is always free
Like a cloud that floats
Full of humanity in the depths of the soul

In my fantasy I see a bright world
Where each night there is less darkness
I dream of souls that are always free
Like the cloud that floats

In my fantasy exists a warm wind
That breathes into the city, like a friend
I dream of souls that are always free
Like the cloud that floats

Its so touching.. I literally cried.. after reading the english lyrics.. my heart really dropped....