The truth hurts.........(T_T)

It started as a mere coincidence........ I didn't know you..... I only know you as a classmate........... but then your not in my class anymore... so i did not care...... Then we went out together as friends.... we're of the same gang... So its normal to be friends.... To mix around... You were the one I call quiet and innocent type of person thats why I trusted you... I help you and you help me.... Fine... We watch movie together... We have fun together.... We go for trips together... We chat... WE get along....

WHY??? Why must the truth be revealed so soon??? It hasn't been long that I got to know you.... Backstabbing jerk..... Its not like I've done anything wrong.... Did I do anything that cause this or its just you?? Is it your way of telling me I'm like this or am I just too sensitive??? Am I that irritating?? Or is it just cause I care too much???

I pretend not to realize the truth... I pretend to not care..... But I just can't ignore my own feelings.... Its not like my heart is made of stone but its becoming stone... Whenever I really give all my feelings to a friend or whoever I trust.. I thought I can really get it back in return.... But its not  likely to happen everytime....  Evertime I trust someone, it ends up either badly or the secret ends being revealed... Is it true by the phrase "TRUST NO ONE!" As the truth keeps getting revealed.. I learn that your not as innocent nor are you quiet... I guess do not judge a book by its cover should be used.... 

The truth hurts.. but its something that should be endures from now on.. But I can't get over it yet.. for now....
But deep down inside I know there are still a few people I could trust.. Just... that I really don't want to trust anyone.. I don't want to get hurt again and again.. History keeps repeating it self over and over again.... 

' 我不在乎了....... 我不想再理这件事了......我恨不得忘记所有东西..........'
 Its easy to say i don't care.... but it is hard to let go.... Its easy to pretend not to know but its hard to hide the secret....... Its easy to let the anger out but its hard keep the sadness out... 
Everything can be said so easily... But the truth is... Its not easy... There is no easy way out of anything.... 

A Day Trip..... ^^

A day trip to malacca on 7/8/2010 with my beloved friends... The journey there... We missed out some fun..... We had to be separated... My dear nee and bee had to be in the other bus........ But still The journey wasn't a long one that a person could have so much back ache.... but yet have slight pains here and there.... 

A happy trip i could say although there were ups and downs as usual.... One could not ask for more i guess.... Just a regret...  that we could have gone to ebtter places.... other than wasting time at the war time muziums... we could have visited the peranakan muzium where we could learn more about the baba nyonya culture.. Not to mention i would love to enjoy a nice peranakan meal... lolx...... 

These photos are all taken  at the Butterfly park and near the stadhuys building, malacca river, muziums, bukit A famosa and the bus...      

               

            

  

  

  

  

  

Memories that lasts forever.... Happy memories....... It makes me happy to see smiling faces or my dear friends and enjoy my day with my dear friends... 

I  enjoy looking at sceneries with my sweet nee,bee,fei,peng ,huei,pennie,hong,lek.nam, ken, c.lee and so on... its a wonderful memory.. Though it was only a day trip but its a memory that alsts forever without a doubt...I Hope we can do this again soon........ 

My new Beginning and leaving the past behind with memories.....

I was a busy person which had no sense of fun... The word 'FUN' just didn't exist in my dictionary... The only words that appear are 'WORK', 'WORK' and 'WORK'......

I only make people hate me by doing the things I do..... But it's just the way of life... I have to do my job in order to get what I want... Its not like I Loved my job...... But what people think of me are just crappy....
My work life revolves around St. John's and Prefect.... I really had no life.. Until the day I Realize the importance of socializing........

Some people who don't understand me call me arrogant.. bossy.... Gila kuasa.... Cold blooded...
But it's what i have to do or else you won't listen... But some people go overboard... Sometimes I really feel like telling 'these inhuman' kind of mammal to go to HELL!!!!!!!!! They have no brains to think and they seriously got issues... No hard feelings guys...(siapa makan cili terasa pedas)... Those who knows me knows what I am doing.... but I knoe somehow or rather those thoughts run through their minds as well...

When I have issues with some people... Those people will be at the top of my "wish they were dead list"... The list which i created to make those people eat their words and to make them invisible in my life... And also to die in a pitiful manner which theri body are so unattached that their own family couldn't recognize them....

But the memories i had are sweet.... My dear darling friends whom supported me all the way.. My sweet friends that have been with me from the start.... I LOVE YOU GUYS.....   the Random memories of which I spend with them.... The times we spend are much more valuable than diamonds and gold combine... The times we had are memories that cannot be forgotten and times that cannot be repeated but able to be cherished....
I do care about them.. But I just could not express myself beofre this to not lose the image and also remain the standard I had to have.... But now..it doesn't matter anymore... Only my dear sweet friends matter...

A new beginning is where I learn that there is more to life than scholarships and work... Working hard is just part of life... But what is LIFE without living it to the max and enjoying your youth while you can right??? To be locked in a room of 4 walls is not a way of life... SO I'll boldly take this step out of the BOX..... And into to the world of happening and the world of mysteries and wonders that awaits.....

Leaving behind my old days makes me worried bout the hardwork I've done to step up what's down adn now its stabilised but I can only hope that You guys can make it better.....

My Loving and dear comittee... Good Luck..And keep our Division top and best....

My sweet memories.... I would love to share...... My great friends........

 

A fresh start and a new way to express myself......

To think that i would even start a blog is just impossible.... But... the impossible became possible... To express my feelings is all I can do rather than keeping it in my heart.... I might just explode.... So why not just write it all down here.. No hard feelings to whoever i refer all my feelings to.. Its too bad whoever who gets mentioned here.. Its my blog its my wish to post anything...
My life begun a few years back when i realized what is important to me and what is not.... Then i realized what I've been doing is wrong... Knowing is just not enough.... To change is the hard part.. Well it took me quite a while.. But no matter how i wanna change... There will always still be the me I used to be... But there is also a new me. Being alive is not enough.. we have to endure all hardships and workload.. that's life....
This is me and will always be me.....

me......

myself.... and I..........