I'm goonna sooo miss you...

 I’ve spend so much time with you… I’ve talked so much with you.. I’ve grown up with you… I’ve spend 5 years with you… I met you the first time I joined St john… you’re one of the new friends I knew in St john back in form 1… You are the cute and bubbly girl i met and can easily be friends with… Though you were just another friend from another class for four years… But I had more than enough memories with you during form 5 when you were in the same class with me and the every moment of being together with you when you joined my circle of best friends… You became one the best friends I could ever had.. You’re so nice and innocent… You’re so sweet and still bubbly from way back when and soooo… 38 like us… Now… you are all grown up… Pennie Chai who will be going to Indonesia to study.. I’m gooonaa SO MISS YOU ar..!!! Our memories will always last forever.. And you’ll always be my best friend…

 

I really really gonna miss you la.... The best singer in perimbun... The best singer in all of my friends...

Different...

I’m not gonna chase for anything anymore.. I’ll just be the me.. That will do everything I can do succeed.. and the rest leave it to God… I am not gonna chase after something or someone I really want or maybe unknowingly want… I just wanna be happy.. If chasing for something is gonna make me unhappy and frustrated.. I don’t wanna do it… I will do my best in everything.. I will be the best friend… I will care for everyone like what God wants us to do.. the rest I leave it up to God whether or not he wants my fate to be so or not… I don’t wanna think about it anymore… >< Being dumped and being in puppy love relationship for three years and tasted being single for another 3 yrs… its enough…. I’ve had it… I don’t wanna be reminded of the bitterness i felt .. I grew up regretting being in such relationships… And being upset for getting rejected… My heart has been broken too many times… The next time it gets broke will be the end of it.. I won’t be able to fix… So I am not risking it,….

David Archuleta - A Little Too Not Over You

The weirdest day EVER!!!

My mom just told me the most shocking thing EVER!!! I wouldn't think I would here such a freaking AWESOME thing EVER!!! Like EVER!!!
She likes.. Girl.. Its OKAY if you have  a BOYFRIEND.. I DON'T MIND!!! I was like huh?? where did this come from.. Then she continued.. ' Just tell me if you have one and don't try to lie about it...' And i was like EXTREMELY HARH????????????????? I was so shock to hear her say that... But then again.. I don't have a boyfriend so I've got nothing to tell... But then she's like I don't believe u lo... I was huh?? SERIOUSLY lo... she still don't believe me.. so fine lo.. damn sweat and weird day I have... Plus she let me drive today... TOday is such a weird day... what day is it again?? Oh.. Tuesday 30 August 2011.... The historic moment in pauline chen's life... My mom actually said I can have a boyfriend... Ccrazy much....

Its enough that I has to spend my weekends in FRIM… WTH… I didn’t know I’m supposed to stay there… OMG…. I had pack last minute… Not to mention buying OHP transparencies and OHP pens which costs me a fortune… crazy much… buy this and buy thta in the only use the OHP stuff.. the rest of if just trash it out… OMG… urggh.. thats not the bad part.. the worst part is yet to come… >< It was a whole day of crash course on the first day… prepare lesson plan… >< boring~ okla… still can.. normal la… NIGHT time!!!! we went to our rooms and i almost died when i went in… arghhhhhh.. I was so gross… spider webs all over the ceiling and table… the bed had lizard POOP!!! EWWWWWW yuck!!!! the study table was horrible… it had gross stuff on it.. The chair was full of lizard poop… the top of the table had spider web with the spider there… the bottom is gross out.. yucks… had to do all the assignments on the bed which is disgusting…. Lian ee and I were in the same room.. so we had to cover the bed with bedsheets and all… urghh.. luckily the bed sheets were clean… or else we would have to sleep on the floor….><

The next which is sunday.. My visual aid were all done… ^^ and I’m ready…. i’m the second in line to present and it is also important as it is a trial test.. failing which will cost me to be unable to sit for the real exam this coming sunday.. >< after i was done.. It was awful to stare and listen to wat other people have to present cause some of it were wrong and boring.. time came to announce people who failed.. OMG… My heart stopped beating for that minute… and thank god my name was not mentioned… I’m relieved that i passed but i sigh cos i have to do another set of slides ad sit for the test next week.. >< Hope i can complete it and also study for my trials for college.. ><

CPR Steps...

my transparencies..

These are my visual aids plus crazy OHP tranparencies and OHP pens were freaking expensive... ><

Missing Me by Rj Helton

Invictus

Invictus Poem
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


Invictus Poem by William Ernest Henley.

This poem somewhat inspired me... and the movie was just so touching...

Basketball...

Since the intercohort games started... I just cant believe myself the sportmanship of some people... Some people and just to egoistic to win.. Some just act like watever la.. doesn't matter... Everyone is so different... Some people who looks so decent and sweet.. Turns out ot be really active in sport and quite rough to be honest... Some just show their character  like they always have... And Some team has so much team spirit although they didn't win but they were happy to be apart of something together with their friends.. I also can;t believe myself.. I played basketball.. OMG... This is like the first time of my life that i have ever touch a basketball.. I used to think basketball is for people who only can excel in sports.. Cause it was how it was back in highschool.. But the first ever anime i watched which is of basketball aand team spirit was 'Dear Boys'

  

For the first time I thought it wasn't a dumb game for tall people... hahhaa... But thanks to liew tzi-qing who thought me how to play basketball the right way and not just to simply throw.. during this intercohort game... I started to exercise again... Learning to play basketball and volleyball... Was the most awesome thing I've ever done..I can't believe i can play basketball.. OMG....Love being with my team... they are so awesome.. Lim sue yin... Choong jia wen and Liew tzi-qing(captain).. ^^
 I really hope that after this intercohort thing ends.. We can still play basketball together.. Its such happy times we share together,... team spirit... learning new stuff... ^^ its just so awesome.. ^^

ignored....

Am i just another person that is living in the world but not to be noticed?? Am just another living thing that u can crack jokes about?? Do i not deserve to be loved?? I keep hearing people say God loves you even when people do not... But God can you speak to me now and tell me you love me?? Cause I'm really am in pain and I really need someone to talk to... God you led me to this person I thought I would be friends with. but in the end.. I don't get a respond and i'm just being ignored... I care so much... But what do i get?? A face that says ok... But and expression that says yala yala.. u damn busy body and annoying la... WTH??? argh.... I cry to see someone hurt.. but does anyone cry for me? would anyone cry for me if i'm gone?? Or would i just be another of ur creations that just live in the world to fill up space?

At the cross

I've watch this for so many times.. yet it touches me everytime i watched it.. I kept crying... ><...

Leo Club Formation...

Its an awesome day... It was hard for the organizing committee.. It was really in a mess and I felt like helping them so much.. But I couldn't do anything  much,.. Its like i would get in the way if I butt in.. So i didn't ask if I could do anything... But I enjoyed spending time with my fellow classmates and fellow Leo members... Its awesome to meet new friends in college cause I don't have much time to meet people.. But you guys are awesome Leo Club of Metro Methodist College Kuala Lumpur board of Directors... U guys made it an awesome day although there were quite a few hiccups...

Events with MCKL-ians and with friends...

MIDSUMMER MASQUERADE

A night so different than any other… Everyone all dressed up for the event. So pretty so handsome and so awesome!!! AWESOME MCKL-ians.

♥Pretty girls of S1103β and Miss Charmaine♥
♥Credits to Ivan Tan♥

♥Guys of S1103β and Miss Charmaine♥
♥Credits to Ivan Tan♥

 

 

I Have no idea whose took all these pictures... I guess its just random people whom I wanna give credits to...

S1103β CLASS OF 2011

They are like the most awesome people I’ve ever met… Just the first week and we already know each other.. Now.. We sampat together… We study together… We sakai together… We be awesome together… They are such awesome group of people.. I have fun with them and I love being with them… They are such good friends to be with… Hope we get to spend more time together.. ^^

Awesome...
credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)

Campur campur...
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner)♥

PINKY!!!!!
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)♥

NICE!!!!
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)♥

Physics People.. ^^
♥credits to : jia wen ♥

The best people ever...
♥credits to : jia wen (camera owner) ivan tan(cameraman)♥

BEST FRIENDS ♥♥♥♥♥♥

This events are from Pennie’s birthday… Chui Peng’s Birthday…. Grace’s Birthday…

All  and all  a gathering of  friends  for someone special… They are most special people to me as they have spent 5 years of my highschool life with me… some have even been in same class with me for all 5 yrs…  I’m grateful that they are still my friends and I wish our FRIENDSHIP will last forever…. I really love being with them but sometimes roads of life make us take different paths... So we have to follow our goal and own road in life.. But we are always friends...

Grace's birthday..
♥Credits to Eugene Chan♥

 

♥Credits to Ken Ren♥

♥Credits to Wei Lek♥

Messed up...

I kinda felt pressure these few days.. Pressure to think what if I failed to do this?? What if what I do was going to make someone unhappy…?? What if I do that it would make someone one else think differently about me… I really don’t know what I should think about… If I think about you.. would be weird?? Cos u and I aren’t related in any way… I’m just a random friend… Would you be bothered if I’ve gone missing.. I don’t think so… 

But I’ve got more important people and stuff to think about… People who does care for me… when I go missing ad when I am feeling down…

My dear old buddies and my new pals… People who l spends hours a day with me.. Understand me.. trust me... love me(i think)... And know who I really am...  I love these people.. Spending a day with them worth more than anything i have with you... Cause being with you is just a fantasy I think about and it will never be true,, But with my friends.. Its all real and true,..Its all happening.. I appreciate those people being my friends... I will treasure them.. I hope soon I will be able to drop and lock out all the feelings I have which I have no idea when it came to me...