Wednesday, February 23, 2011
I've done it again...
The main problem I'm having is that I have no guts to say.. And I know I'm wrong..... I know that it would not happen between us.. And i too know that it is wrong to be in a relationship because Its wrong.... Its terribly wrong if its us but I can't help but to like or have feelings for you.. Its not what or how I used to feel when I'm around you.. Its much different now... I used to be stern and not very nice because I don't wanna spoil you.. Or maybe I'm scared maybe this would happened... Now.. I really done it.. I have feelings for you but I have no guts to tell or be with you.. I try to avoid you but I just can't help myself but to look at you and do anything in order to be with you.... But its wrong.. Its really wrong.. I feel sad when you do.. I feel lost when your not with me... When you are angry or sad, I wanna be by your side and listen to you and your frustration. I wanna see you smile because your smile lights me up as well.. It gives me such warmth and makes me happy too.. But I know time is short and I won't be able to see you anytime soon after the results come out.. I'll have to start my new life and lead a life that I might not be able to change when I start. I wanna let you know how I feel but I don't want you to ignore me if you don't have feelings for me after I tell you... I'm not sure of your feeling bout me before this.. but an hour ago... I realised that Im not that important to you.. I'm but just a tool or maybe you should say, You'll be with me in order to get what you need.. But when something is done and when you don't need me.. I'm left aside until the next time you feel like talking or use me... Cause you don't even care if I'm unhappy.. You want me to wait.. You don't care if I'm alone walking or whether if I'm safe... So am I doing it right by not telling you or is it just chicken of me for not telling you??? I really don't know..
Friday, February 18, 2011
I don't know why.......
I never knew why I did it at first... What for??? Now I think I know... Its not because I'm interested or worried , Its just because your there..... I think thats te reason.. but I seriously don't know.... The only thing I know has already been taken away from me years ago.. To love somebody full heartedly and the braveness to tell that someone I LOVE YOU... Now... I can only say no matter how much I like a person.. I have no guts tot ell and even if somebody tells me he loves, I don't know how to respond cause it has been so long and I'm scared of getting hurt......
Monday, February 14, 2011
Hachiko : A Dog's Tale
Based on a true story from Japan, Hachiko Monogatari ハチ公物語 (literally “The Tale of Hachiko”) is a moving film about loyalty and the rare, invincible bonds that occasionally form almost instantaneously in the most unlikely places.
In the modern day, a class full of young students is giving oral presentations about personal heroes. A boy named Ronnie stands up and begins to tell of 'Hachiko', his grandfather's dog. Years before, an Akita puppy is sent from Japan to the United States, but his cage falls off the baggage cart at an American train station, where he is found by college professor Parker Wilson (Richard Gere). Parker is instantly captivated by the dog. When Carl, the station controller, refuses to take him, Parker takes the puppy home overnight. His wife Cate (Joan Allen) is insistent about not keeping the puppy.
The next day Parker expects that someone will have contacted the train station, but no one has. He sneaks the pup onto the train and takes him to work, where a Japanese college professor, Ken, translates the symbol on the pup's collar as 'Hachi', Japanese for 'good fortune', and the number 8. Parker decides to call the dog 'Hachi'. Ken points out that perhaps the two are meant to be together. Parker attempts to play fetch with Hachi, but he refuses to join in. Meanwhile Cate receives a call about someone wanting to adopt Hachi. After seeing how close her husband has come to Hachi, however, Cate agrees that they can keep him.
A few years later, Hachi and Parker are as close as ever. Parker, however, is still mystified by Hachi's refusal to do normal, dog-like things like chase and retrieve a ball. Ken advises him that Hachi will only bring him the ball for a special reason. One morning, Parker leaves for work and Hachi sneaks out and follows him to the train station, where he refuses to leave until Parker walks him home. That afternoon, Hachi sneaks out again and walks to the train station, waiting patiently for Parker's train to come in. Eventually Parker relents and walks Hachi to the station every morning, where he leaves on the train. Hachi leaves after Parker's safe departure, but comes back in the afternoon to see his master's train arrive and walk with him home again. This continues for some time, until one afternoon Parker attempts to leave, but Hachi barks and refuses to go with him. Parker eventually leaves without him, but Hachi chases him, holding his ball. Parker is surprised but pleased that Hachi is finally willing to play fetch the ball with him. Worried that he will be late for the college, Professor Parker leaves on the train despite Hachi barking at him. At work that day Parker, still holding Hachi's ball, is teaching his music class when he suddenly suffers a heart attack and dies.
At the train station, Hachi waits patiently as the train arrives, but there is no sign of Parker. He remains, lying in the snow, for several hours, until Parker's son-in-law Michael comes to collect him. The next day, Hachi returns to the station and waits, remaining all day and all night. As time passes, Cate sells the house and Hachi is sent to live with her daughter Andy, Michael, and their new baby Ronnie. However, at the first opportunity, he escapes and eventually finds his way back to his old house and then to the train station, where he sits at his usual spot, eating hot dogs given to him by Jas, a local vendor. Andy arrives soon after and takes him home, but lets him out the next day to return to the station.
Hachi begins sleeping under a broken train carriage, keeping vigil during the day and surviving off food and water given to him by Jas and the local butcher. One day, a man named Teddy, a newspaper reporter, inquires about Hachi and asks if he can write a story about him. People begin to send money to Carl to buy Hachi food. Ken, Parker's friend, reads the article, and offers to pay for Hachi's upkeep. He realizes that although it has been a year, Hachi wants to, and has to, wait for his master, and wishes him a long life. "If Hachiko must wait, then Hachiko must wait," as Ken says.
Years pass, and still Hachi waits. Cate visits Parker's grave, where she meets Ken, and she says that even though it has been a decade, she still misses him. Arriving at the station, she is stunned to see Hachi, old, dirty and weak, still maintaining his vigil. Overcome, Cate sits and waits for the next train with him. At home, Cate tells the now ten-year-old Ronnie about Hachi. That night, Hachi makes his way to his usual spot, where he lies down and falls asleep for the last time, dreaming of his master, and later sees a vision of Parker who picks him up in a joyous reunion before their spirits rise to heaven.
Ronnie, back in his classroom, finishes his report, telling his classmates that Hachi, for his love and loyalty, will forever be his hero. That afternoon, he walks his own Akita puppy named Hachi along the same track his grandfather once walked with his own Hachi.
The closing cards reveal about the real Hachikō who was born in Odate in 1923. The death of Hidesaburo Ueno in 1925 was revealed and says how Hachiko returned to the Shibuya train station the next day and for the next nine years for his appearance. The death of Hachiko in 1934 was revealed too (in fact, Hachiko died in 1935). Before the end credits roll, a photo of his statue in the train station with a short briefing of it is shown.
The film was shot primarily in Woonsocket and Bristol, Rhode Island. The newspaper reporter, Teddy, states he is from the Woonsocket Call, the daily newspaper published in Woonsocket. This is the only spoken reference to the actual location where filming took place.
This story actually captivated my heart so much i had to cry... It is so touching... Such a loyal dog...
In the modern day, a class full of young students is giving oral presentations about personal heroes. A boy named Ronnie stands up and begins to tell of 'Hachiko', his grandfather's dog. Years before, an Akita puppy is sent from Japan to the United States, but his cage falls off the baggage cart at an American train station, where he is found by college professor Parker Wilson (Richard Gere). Parker is instantly captivated by the dog. When Carl, the station controller, refuses to take him, Parker takes the puppy home overnight. His wife Cate (Joan Allen) is insistent about not keeping the puppy.
The next day Parker expects that someone will have contacted the train station, but no one has. He sneaks the pup onto the train and takes him to work, where a Japanese college professor, Ken, translates the symbol on the pup's collar as 'Hachi', Japanese for 'good fortune', and the number 8. Parker decides to call the dog 'Hachi'. Ken points out that perhaps the two are meant to be together. Parker attempts to play fetch with Hachi, but he refuses to join in. Meanwhile Cate receives a call about someone wanting to adopt Hachi. After seeing how close her husband has come to Hachi, however, Cate agrees that they can keep him.
A few years later, Hachi and Parker are as close as ever. Parker, however, is still mystified by Hachi's refusal to do normal, dog-like things like chase and retrieve a ball. Ken advises him that Hachi will only bring him the ball for a special reason. One morning, Parker leaves for work and Hachi sneaks out and follows him to the train station, where he refuses to leave until Parker walks him home. That afternoon, Hachi sneaks out again and walks to the train station, waiting patiently for Parker's train to come in. Eventually Parker relents and walks Hachi to the station every morning, where he leaves on the train. Hachi leaves after Parker's safe departure, but comes back in the afternoon to see his master's train arrive and walk with him home again. This continues for some time, until one afternoon Parker attempts to leave, but Hachi barks and refuses to go with him. Parker eventually leaves without him, but Hachi chases him, holding his ball. Parker is surprised but pleased that Hachi is finally willing to play fetch the ball with him. Worried that he will be late for the college, Professor Parker leaves on the train despite Hachi barking at him. At work that day Parker, still holding Hachi's ball, is teaching his music class when he suddenly suffers a heart attack and dies.
At the train station, Hachi waits patiently as the train arrives, but there is no sign of Parker. He remains, lying in the snow, for several hours, until Parker's son-in-law Michael comes to collect him. The next day, Hachi returns to the station and waits, remaining all day and all night. As time passes, Cate sells the house and Hachi is sent to live with her daughter Andy, Michael, and their new baby Ronnie. However, at the first opportunity, he escapes and eventually finds his way back to his old house and then to the train station, where he sits at his usual spot, eating hot dogs given to him by Jas, a local vendor. Andy arrives soon after and takes him home, but lets him out the next day to return to the station.
Hachi begins sleeping under a broken train carriage, keeping vigil during the day and surviving off food and water given to him by Jas and the local butcher. One day, a man named Teddy, a newspaper reporter, inquires about Hachi and asks if he can write a story about him. People begin to send money to Carl to buy Hachi food. Ken, Parker's friend, reads the article, and offers to pay for Hachi's upkeep. He realizes that although it has been a year, Hachi wants to, and has to, wait for his master, and wishes him a long life. "If Hachiko must wait, then Hachiko must wait," as Ken says.
Years pass, and still Hachi waits. Cate visits Parker's grave, where she meets Ken, and she says that even though it has been a decade, she still misses him. Arriving at the station, she is stunned to see Hachi, old, dirty and weak, still maintaining his vigil. Overcome, Cate sits and waits for the next train with him. At home, Cate tells the now ten-year-old Ronnie about Hachi. That night, Hachi makes his way to his usual spot, where he lies down and falls asleep for the last time, dreaming of his master, and later sees a vision of Parker who picks him up in a joyous reunion before their spirits rise to heaven.
Ronnie, back in his classroom, finishes his report, telling his classmates that Hachi, for his love and loyalty, will forever be his hero. That afternoon, he walks his own Akita puppy named Hachi along the same track his grandfather once walked with his own Hachi.
The closing cards reveal about the real Hachikō who was born in Odate in 1923. The death of Hidesaburo Ueno in 1925 was revealed and says how Hachiko returned to the Shibuya train station the next day and for the next nine years for his appearance. The death of Hachiko in 1934 was revealed too (in fact, Hachiko died in 1935). Before the end credits roll, a photo of his statue in the train station with a short briefing of it is shown.
The film was shot primarily in Woonsocket and Bristol, Rhode Island. The newspaper reporter, Teddy, states he is from the Woonsocket Call, the daily newspaper published in Woonsocket. This is the only spoken reference to the actual location where filming took place.
This story actually captivated my heart so much i had to cry... It is so touching... Such a loyal dog...
I was never there,,,,,,,
There are times when people interact and become close... I was not there...
Then there are times when people have something in common that they share it with each other... I was not there....
Then there are also times that people hang with each other and spend quality time with each other to strengthen their bond.... I was not there also...
Come to think of it.. I was never there.... Or anywhere when all that happy times happened.. Cause I was too engrossed with my activities of being the perfect student.. A way of getting higher chances of getting a scholarship which now proves that my efforts were crap cos they are only against one point of view.. What race are you what colour is your skin... They were never after the fact that your good and your the best... That sucks.. Because of that I ever had the time spend to have quality time and bonding... That's also why I'm losing it.. Somehow somewhere I should have stopped but I kept going only till the end of form 5 i realised there are more than cocuriculum marks and god academic.. Which is friendship... Is it too late?? Yes.. Whe I see people around me more close than ever.... i felt like I am being left out due to my incompetence of being the best... What is being the best wen there is no one to share it with?? What is the good of being at home when all I do is sulk and sob when people are out there having fun??? Why do I have to lead such life when others lead such a good life?? Why do I have to be this way?? I had thoughts of dying and running away.. Is that going to change anything.. A wise person would say no and a stupid ass would tell me why not go ahead and try.... Though it has been hard to try new things and also trying to keep old things.. Its the same way with friends.. New friends come everytime.. But the hard part is not of making friends, the art is cherishing them every moment.. And the doubt of whether they cherish me or not is also the problem.. Though I've been friends with so many people and some for such long time.. I still don't know if they are true to me.. or its just an act they put on in front of me.. I don't have that feeling of being there and having that close relationship with anyone before...... maybe its just me.. Its my problem i guess....
Then there are times when people have something in common that they share it with each other... I was not there....
Then there are also times that people hang with each other and spend quality time with each other to strengthen their bond.... I was not there also...
Come to think of it.. I was never there.... Or anywhere when all that happy times happened.. Cause I was too engrossed with my activities of being the perfect student.. A way of getting higher chances of getting a scholarship which now proves that my efforts were crap cos they are only against one point of view.. What race are you what colour is your skin... They were never after the fact that your good and your the best... That sucks.. Because of that I ever had the time spend to have quality time and bonding... That's also why I'm losing it.. Somehow somewhere I should have stopped but I kept going only till the end of form 5 i realised there are more than cocuriculum marks and god academic.. Which is friendship... Is it too late?? Yes.. Whe I see people around me more close than ever.... i felt like I am being left out due to my incompetence of being the best... What is being the best wen there is no one to share it with?? What is the good of being at home when all I do is sulk and sob when people are out there having fun??? Why do I have to lead such life when others lead such a good life?? Why do I have to be this way?? I had thoughts of dying and running away.. Is that going to change anything.. A wise person would say no and a stupid ass would tell me why not go ahead and try.... Though it has been hard to try new things and also trying to keep old things.. Its the same way with friends.. New friends come everytime.. But the hard part is not of making friends, the art is cherishing them every moment.. And the doubt of whether they cherish me or not is also the problem.. Though I've been friends with so many people and some for such long time.. I still don't know if they are true to me.. or its just an act they put on in front of me.. I don't have that feeling of being there and having that close relationship with anyone before...... maybe its just me.. Its my problem i guess....
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