Dance Performance SCC 2010 (KSS Performance Part 3-Not Completed)

Kantoi Sketch SCC 2010 (KSS Performance Part 2)

Autumn's Concerto ep 21 FINAL part 2-3 [eng sub]

TIring and expensive week... BUt FUN!!!!!!!

After the whole hectic week of SPM.. came A whole 5 days 4 nights of even more hectic work... Cramp up with fun activities and exams.... Its now easy to manage to pull through but I'm happy that quite a number of juniors and first time campers are able to pull through it.. Unfortunately there are some people which can't stand the pressure and went back... Its not their fault though.... But I really do hope they can overcome their fear and challenge it next year... In the camp was grouped in Tinkerbell.... lolx... its quite nice and fun.. And I'm in the same tent with alice lai, nellie tan and jessica yang... It was fun when it is not raining.. But when it did rain, most of the activities were either late or our tents become flooded...  There also fnny times which I spend with my members.. THis time.. I really got to know my members better than I did... I also got to know people of different areas better... This last 5 days, I managed to learn what others think about me and I also got to know more people. Although I still miss the times we had in SCC07 and ICC08.... SCC10 is not as bad as we seemed in camp... The courses like signalling, cookery, and craft were fun... Life saving skill and  caring for the sick was  ok... not bad.... but quite boring... This year, is my first year going jungle trekking in the evening and coming out at around 8pm.. It was a scary experience for me cause it was pitch black and I have no torchlight... Luckily there were few people with torchlight... And I hope this experience wouldn't scare my litttle juniors.... I feel so sorry cause I wasn't able to take part in all the fun activities due to my leg.... I was told not to join any by the doctor just before camp.. But I didn't listen.. I went for jungle trekking and came back with swollen toe.. Its because I can't exert force or get it soaked in water for a long period... Due to infection.. But jungle trekking.. force and water came together... so it was swollen.. thought i can walk and run like normal... I can't get it soaked.. so I didn't go for river crossing and obstacles crossing... Sobs.... Camp fire night was awesome at first.... but then it was quite sad as we're sent to bed early. Though it was for our own good.. but its quite heart breaking as its our last night... We said our good byes and went home... but it was quite weird of me because i realised i didn't take any photo there.... I usually take a lot of pic.. But this time I only took ONE! how sad....
Prom was the day after I came back from camp on 29th Dec.... It was really tiring.. I spent almost RM500++ to buy accessories and the dress for prom.. I even spent RM38 to set my hair.. OMG... The amount of $$$ i used.. urgghhh.....  Overall it was ok... But not as fun as i expected.... But I appreciate having my friends there and spending the last few moments of happy memories with them as we might not have the time i the future to gather like this again.... The only thing lacking is to have a prom date... Thats the only sad thing... But overall I had a nice time... Dancing was quite weird as I do not dance.. And during slow dance I could just only stand and watch or just dance with my close girlfriends.. No date... No boyfriend.... Sad... What a prom...

【下一站，幸福】小樂的床邊故事

品冠 - 我以為 ( 下一站，幸福 )

丁噹-親人

Missing.....

I thought I finally found the missing piece... But its just the fragments of it that I've found... Or it might just be my imaginations... I've finally realised that life is not as simple as it seems... There are more to it than meets the eye... There are things that I couldn't see and feel.. But its there... The truth that I seek will never appear if I didn't search deep enough.. But now I know, the only truth i that i was imaginating too much... There is only friendship... no other.... A big mistake and the worst mistake of telling... Its also wrong from hiding it last time.. Its just silly of me... But its the truth that I've to face....
Watching years pass, watching you there, watching you grow to be a better person.... I'll only be able to watch,... I won't be able to be there for you or to be part of it.. Because I'm just an ordinary friend that you may soon forget because you've found the most important person in your life that can be with you and be there for you.... I've to accept it... It was my fault that I let go... So its your life now... I'm envious but happy for though it hurts inside.. I was just hoping for another chance but its too late...
The piece that i threw away will remain missing forever.. till the day I achieved my 下一站莘福。。。。 There'll always be a hole and a fragment missing from my life... Total happiness won't come flying.. But it is to be achieved. I've to change what I am to what I will be and not the one I am now... Change for a better... Watching dramas are just fantasies...   Happy endings and sad climax are just in a movie...Only acted out and written out by script writers.... I shouldn't be so naive to believe that it would come true and there is such thing as replay,repeat or pause... or even stop now continue later... I should be more than awake now.. I should live life that is hard and real... no more virtual and imaginative life...  Once it passed... there will not be a next stop....It is not like missing a bus you can take the next... Life is hard and it waits for no one and there will not be another chance....
Studies and Work will be the next target.. I should leave all the unhappy moments behind but remember and cherish the happy moments i've had before... I will not forget those who have been helping me and supporting me all these while... I'll not forget those who have hated and pin pointed at me... This is not because I would like to have revenge but its to thank them.. Or else, I wouldn't have been successful.. Because what I've achieved is for them to see that I'm  better than them and I can do better than them at anytime just say the word...
Millions of hopes are crushed almost every second in this world... I won't be the one who get my hopes and dreams crushed... I'll maintain my strength and courage to fight on.. Even if it does crushes my hopes and dreams, I will fight on because it is not the end.. There will be other opportunities waiting for me to grasp them. Meaningful life to lead ahead even without the other half of myself being there for me.. maybe the other half would appear in the time i need most in the future.. But i know its not now....

莘福。。。。。

莘福是什么？？ 莘福存在吗？？
I know it is not true... happiness won't come looking for us but we have to search for it... But...the consequences are too great.. The suffering are far too great... I want to let it out.. but to whom i can say it out to??? SOme feelings can't be expressed.... I can't tell everything out... There are too many secrets in me... I can't just say it all at once.. Even if i say it out... its not everything i wan to express... there are still much more behind the curtain....