Friday, December 7, 2012

Last Day of College and Farewell for Ms Ng (1 Dec 2012)

        It was nostalgic as it was already the last two days of college. It's been a long and hard journey but the journey is has come to and end. The extended semester is a memorable semester. There are those who has helped me so much and there are also those who has mocked me and made me a stronger person. Thank for those who have always encouraged me all the time. Thank you to my loved ones and most of all my besties and buddies who have supported me all the way eventhough we're miles apart. ^^  One thing I'm gonna miss most is the sweet S1207beta people whom I've grown to be so close to and the sweetness of their smiles. They did not look down on me eventhough I was repeating another semester but they have helped me and also gave me the chance to help them and in turn learn more about myself. The sweet smarite pants Jeynn, Jamie and Wei Laing has helped me sooo soo much especially Jeynn. The sweet Jing Yi, Yi Zi, Yu Yan are so sweet to me and they are such best friends.. The sweetest of all Char Lie and Lisha who has been nothing but fun. laughter and my sweet tooth and dessert provider. ^^ hahaa.. I'm gonna miss them soo soo much..


     Ms Ng Shu Von my chemistry teacher for 4 semester who has helped me out so much and never gave up on me is leaving the college as well. She will be going back to Singapore to teach and I will miss her too. We actually had a farewell party for her at Shabu One on 1st Dec at Lot 10 and we also went shopping at H&M together. haha.. It's been 2 years since I entered college and she has helped me time and again eventhough I've been nothing but a failure all the time. She didn't give up on me. But she helped me so much especially this 4th semester where I struggle to redo both my AS ad A2 papers all at once. She is an awesome lecturer and she is nothing but sweet and knowledgeable. She is not only a bookworm. She is one awesome athlete. She runs in all the marathon and gets medals man.. I envy her soo much. ^^ I hope she'll enjoy her life back at Singapore and may we meet again in the near future.









Monday, November 12, 2012

My Gains, My Loss and My Toughest times.

It's been a long long time since I last posted up anything. Been really busy catching up with time. Had a rough start at the beginning of my 4th semester journey. Tried to be the best among the best. Tried to do everything with y own strength and most of all tried to be perfect! I learnt a lot the past few months and God had helped me out a lot through out my journey without me realizing it..^^ We'll have  a short story of each case scenario for this whole year. ^^ my gains and my loss and my toughest times.. ^^

1) CF Camp

Since the beginning of this semester I had a rough time staying back almost everyday. Not only doing things for cf camp but other stuff as well but I didn't realize I didn't do it for God but for my own glory. In the midst of it, I tried to involve myself with love stories and stupid rumours all due plain naive-ness and listening to my heart and not God. I'm in charge of registration so basically I just have to prepare registration forms, give it out. collect them with cash of at east rm160 per person. So nothing was coming the way I planned it as everything has it's own issues whether it is the person handling it or the person helping to do it. So I took back the trust which I gave them and did it myself. So that I wouldn't look bad if it doesn't get done on time. Again with the fact I didn't pray enough and depend on God. Then it came to the point where it was my breaking point with the stress level high as Qualifying Test was there the week before camp and everything is NOT ready yet. I panicked. I flunked my tests. I failed my job and I felt I failed God as he gave me such an important task to do. Then we all sat and pray and guess what. God helped us through and all preparations was done. So we thought. Day 1, bus was late, hot, tired, angry,stressed, no co-operation and most of all not enough prayers. I blew up and I actually scolded or let go of my anger in front of people. It was bad and shameful. I really didn't care at that moment because everything was not in place already. We were late. our schedules were messed up.  I realized my mistakes that night. Make up for it and Pray. All I did that night was Pray. I cried. I shed tears. I regretted. But I can't just stay right where I am. I prayed for camp. All of s did. Thank God for his presence everyone was safe and sound and the camp went smooth eventhough there were hiccups with schedule . Day 2 received such wonderful blessing from God for the nice morning and nice weather for our games. Everything went smoothly. But there were spiritual hiccups and there issues. I cried again. Praying for a better last day. praying for God's presence to be known and to be there on our Sunday. Cried to bed while praying. Day 3 our last day. I was expected to be lashing out by some really horrible people who call themselves my friend but thank God, for controlling my temper and taking me to the mode of relax and ignore but try to be strict kind of thing. So I overheard someone say, at least she didn't lash out but it was a surprise for me that she didn't. Well what can I say, maybe that's the way God planned and help me grow.
Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will
A happy ending to a not so happy story but at least I learned a lot. And the food at El Sanctuary is awesome. Thank you Uncle Vincent and Aunty Ann and family for your hospitality and hard work. ^^  But at least I get to know a lot more people and some people may look more gentle and nicer than they actually do look. hehee.






2) Area CHarity Dinner
Basically it does not give me much challenge as i'm not involved in it physically. There are some problems due to the fact that I'm not close to some people as the rest does and also because I'm not the kind of person that likes to butter people's shoe or be an entertainment for others. It may be true friendship or it may not. I may seem like they're acting nice and all. But I can't judge people anymore. and I don't want to. It's because I'm not worthy judge. But basically it's how I do not want to be involved as much as I used to love involving in it. It may seem I'm jealous or it may also seem that I may not be the apple of the head's eye but I really am not interested in it because it does not serve the purpose of me joining it like how i used to thought of it's purpose. It's blood sucking and time consuming thing which do not benefit the community but suck the money out of them. I want to do a humanitarian job and not communication and investment. It as always that I don't go and help until last minute it's because I'm not free plus it's so far away and they hold meetings at night. How do u aspect me to come? Yes, I'm cruel. Yes, I'm lazy. Say all you want. But I have a life too. I may seem to be very free and easy going person but I have my difficulties too. Don't you understand? God thought me how to say NO for once in my life I had the courage to tell them 'no' and 'i can't do it'. And God helped me see the light that I am not fit for this job although I loved it so much once upon a time. It may seem like I'm being a whiny little brat but how it's how I view it. My point of view. Maybe they see it otherwise. I really don't know but I'm planning to fade out slowly and have my work done else where. Place where I am needed as a first aider and as volunteer! not blood sucking machine! Though I smiled though I have met friends. I cherished the old times but I dread the present time. I may have been smiling but it's not true smile like I used to.
\My last 'happy' memory.


3) College, Life and etc~
God has been very merciful to me throughout my college life this semester. I had a lot of hard times which I had to endeavour throughout this time. Basically it's simple stuff like assignments, lecture, exams and test. But it also challenges me spiritually. To put trust in God and let him be the light of my life. Struggling with friendship which are not truly friends. Which we may call it as strangers I met and started talking to but then developed a certain level of relationship and bond but we're not truly friends because we do not share that intimate friendship of being in the same class or have the same lunch break and am not able to 'click' with your group of friends. Friend may be a simple word but the meaning behind it is simple but made complicated. Friendship is all about communication, understanding and getting to know one another and started putting trust. But sometimes trust is too strong of a word and burden. So some people decides to betray trusts to lift that burden. I thought I am your friend but I no longer am.. I had the feeling of abandonment because I cannot 'click' with them eventhough I have known them for almost a year or more now.  I'm letting go of this bonding. If you want to be my friend you're always welcomed to be. I wont be the one who keeps trying. Because I'm tired. I learned to let go. Letting go doesn't mean losing but tolerating defeat and win over the fact that I've grown up. It is a good choice because I have gained knowledge and also true friends over the past few months.
MY dear sweet friends. I love you and you are dear to me. I'm good to you not because I want something in return but I just want you to know that I will be your shoulder to lean on when you need one. But will u lend me yours when I am down?

I close my post with a prayer that dear heavenly father I  pray that you would bless my friends, my family, my associates and everyone around me that they may accept the trust I give them and trust me in return because they are my treasure and I pray for their lovely smiles and wonderful hearts that they may continue to shine and be the most wonderful people I've ever known. Amen.






Sunday, July 15, 2012

Melaka trip with S1103 Beta peeps.. ^^

The end of the semester with my s1103beta peeps.. A last moment spent together. Eventhough there were problems and quarrels, I enjoyed myself being with them. After this we're going our own separate ways and to meet up is not easy as everyone will either be all around Malaysia or all around the world.. I appreciated the moment we were able to spend time laugh and smile together eventhough its just a short 2days one night trip.. ^^

Day 1
Brandon came to my house to fetch me around 6am or so? Then we went to fetch Jia Chee at sungai long which took 30 minutes or more.. Made our way back out to Terminal Bersepadu Selatan which took forever cause number 1:jam.. number 2: don't know the way over there.. LOL... Finally reached there around 7.15am I think.. Parked the car and we walked into the terminal expecting most people to arrive. But then.. the story starts there. Only one person was early and then 3 of us. The rest were on their way. One group of jokers left kepong after 7.00am expecting no jam on a monday? Jokers rite? I was like what in the universe?? Monday leh come on??? i seriously don't know what they were thinking. But anyway, the rest reached on time and we left the terminal sharp 8am without the three musketeers so they had to find their own way there. In the end Venisha's uncle fetched them all the way to melaka. Can you believe it? walao... melaka leh!! Not near ok?? On the way there some of us snored their way there, the rest of us made noise and in the end got stared at and most of us stuffed earphones in our ears and listened to songs all the way. I sent sms and listened to my musics while taking pictures of them snoring and talking. woots.. hehehe..







 Reached Melaka Sentral around 10.30 or 11am.. I think.. We all took a rm15 taxi ride to Jonker street. We then split into our own groups and walked on our own to wherever we wanted to and we had to meet back at Hoe Kee chicken rice shop for lunch. hehee.. So Sue yin, Crystal, Venisha, Davinna, Yian yeen and i went on our own but It rained slighty.. Adui... We stopped by at various stores along the way. chocolate shop. cheng ho museum.. er.Then we stopped at some shop to eat cendol with durian..











 After eating and when the rain stopped.. We went shopping.. actually is.. they went shopping.. I just sat and watch most of the time..... But we went to the Christ Church over at the Stadhuys Building. And guess what.. I say Brandon Chen. haha.. An old friend from Kajang Highschool St. John,...I was staring at a guys i knew for 4 years but I didn't dare to go up to him and say hi. Because I felt that it was too coincidentally wrong... hahaha.. So I decided to use our phones. haha I messaged him eventhough I was I think 2m away from him.. haha.. SO awkward. But I had to follow the group So I didn't get a chance to talk to him.. But we manage to put a catch up date soon.. ^^ 




We met for lunch at Hoe Kee Chicken Rice restaurant which was famous so it seems.. We were actually earlyfor almost 30minutes. But at least we got us a seat for 21 people. LOL.. It is actually three tables in a room which is just nice to fit all 21 of us.. hehe.. :)  So when most of them arrived.. Sook Ching ordered for all of us..  the cheapest she could get and she's actually very accurate. Enough food for everyone. ^^









After lunch we were actually finish almost an hour ahead of schedule so we decided to head for the Motel as we really do not know the way there and we got lost eventhough there was such thing call google mapping.. We walked and walked and walked round the block for no reason until we finally reached our destination. My bag was getting heavier by the minute man.. haha. But at least Russell helped me out a little bit along the way. If not I think I would have had a broken arm.. hahaha. The motel was actually cleaner and more comfy than expected. I shared a room with Crystal(tzi-qing). and our room number was 4.. @.@ but it is nice room. ^^ We had a big bed to share and a bathroom without a toilet isn't that rather weird? But at least we dont have to fight for the shower with the rest of them. hehehe... Settled down and crystal took of her shirt @.@. well at least i'm dressed. So I left her to cool down while I visit the rest of them.. ^^ hahahhaa.. sue yin and the rest had a big room which fit 4 or 5 people.. they had a big bed and a double decker bed.. ^^ Then they decided to visit out small little room. haha.. So we all cramped in.. I sat on the floor and the rest of them.. well.. on my bed.. hahaha...



We all got our rest and manage to pack up. Drop unwanted things off in the room, bathed, slept, snored, joke, ate, and everything out of the ordinary and vice versa . We left the motel and walked to the Baba and Nonya Museum to look at it but they told us they don't ahve enough staff and asked us to come back at 4.30pm when we were there around 3.30pm. Do you think we have nothing better to do?             Plus it was freaking hot and it's not like she is not a staff or a human but she's just sitttinf there. So annoying. So we went to have cendol at Shan Shu Gong. But I got a honey lemon juice and the rest of them got durian cendol.. hahaa. I kinda felt a little bit uncomfortable in the throat. I thought I was coming down with a sore throat so I didn't eat anymore durians. hehe..








They continued shopping for clothes and bags. Then we came to this store that sells a lot of  key chains, souvenirs and other stuff. So most of us went crazy over earrings and i was into key chains. I found a hand made star key chain for 3.90 but it was 3 for rm10. So i grabbed stickers which was rm3 and a pair of earrings. I wanted to get the heart shaped one but it was expensive so I didn't get it..  Then it was time for dinner.. ^^ woots woots. Time flies man.. @.@ we took a cab to Ole Sayang Nyonya restaurant. ^^ First to arrive and not told we already booked place there, we just sat down. haha.. Then only they called and told us they already booked. But it doesn't matter anyway cause we were already seated plus there wasn't anyone in the restaurant. hahaha. So we cam-whored while waiting for others to arrive. woots..






I wondered why thye took so long but I didn't really bothered cause I assumed that there wan't any taxi available. So I played temple run on Venisha's phone and I was so drawn into the game to beat her high score, I didn't realize they came in with a cake. oops.. They celebrated my belated 19th birthday with me.. ^^ yeay. Thank you so much guys. Appreciate it a lot.. ^^ muackz..




After dinner we were all full and almost bloated as they were plenty of food and they were delicious.. ^^ Plus the cake. We were full to the top of our stomachs. ^^ So we walked to the bakery to buy breakfast as we were afraid we might get hungry so we bought a light breakfast.. then we walked to taming sari which was about 15-20minutes walk.. ^^  It's a good way to lose all the calories we took in and to not get fat.. hahaha..













       
It was a nice ride. The night scenery was awesome and not to mention if riding with someone you love would be even better.. ^^ I wish that happens one day.. ^^
After seeing such nice views and enjoyed the ride. We were mostly exhausted and we just sat in front of taming sari to rest and enjoy the wind. LOL.. While deciding whr to go next. Some wanted to go for river cruise. In the end we walked back to Jonker Street. Leg also hampir tercabut. @.@ Then took a cab to eat the famous satay celup. I celup twice then i wan vomit. It's rather nice and the sauce is awesome. But thinking about it be recycled over and over. Plus this uncle went around all the table using the SAME spoon STIRRING the sauce.. GROSS!!!! i just stop. I watch the guys eat I almost puked.. >< WHen I finally told them about it they literally stop eating and felt like puking.. oopss.. my bad.. LOL
We headed back after the gross meal of satay celup. LOL.. Despite having a nice taste but I just can't stand the re-use fact. Ooopss.. We walked back to the motel. Though it is scary with all the crimes going on. So everyone stayed alert and kept in a group although some jokers just walked their own way. Nothing to say la..  When we finally made it back. We took ours baths and had our hair dried and so on la.. Later that night, haha.. very late.. We the girls stayed in a room playing monopoly till super chi gek.. LOL. The guys in the other room play pictionary and laugh their way out. hahahaha. We actually were so noisy that two other customer in the motel left the motel in the middle of the night.  OPPPSSS.. We all played till we got so excited. haha.. but sue yin, venisha, yian yeen, and davinna slept soundly in their room. crystal also was already sleeping in our room. a few of the guys went out for a 'drink'. We slept around 1am. haha..

Morning Morning Morning.. ^^ Woke up early and so many things happened but I do not wanna mention in details cause I don't think it is a good idea and it not a good thing to backstab so I won't mention it ^6^ Let's skip to the point where everyone is awake and some sleepy heads sat at the lounge table having breakfast and chit chat. ^^ Plus CAM WHORE!





We camwhored outside the motel while waiting for others to come down. ^^



We headed out towards the river to get a ride on the River cruise which in the end up not getting to sit on the cruise due to the crappy service of MELAKA! So we ended up taking plenty of pictures by the river and it was a good good scenery. Although we had a few hiccups and a bit tension, I enjoyed all these camwhore moments. ^^ Because pictures speak a thousand word and it helps me flash  back to the memory lane we walk.








After camwhoring and whining and thinking and discussion. We decided to head to eat Mille crepe whihc was in the not at the place it suppose to be. Urghh.. So annoying! But at least it shifted to just across the road which was at the Mahkota Parade. ^^ After that there was some complications as mille crepe only opens at 11am and it was only 10am. Most of us are starving and some planned other activities and also miscommunications. There were unhappy moments which made some of us stomp off but at least we made up after that. So yea we're fine now... ^^After that incident everyone went their separate ways until 11am.Mei kee, sheau wen, jia wen and I went in mahkota parade to do some shopping. We end up going to etude house. I spend rm15 to get 5 face masks which was reckoned to be awesome and was having sale at that time. hehe... We made our way back to Nadeje to eat our long awaited  mille crepe.


 After being super stuffed up eating all the mille crepe. It was nice at the beginning but too much of it makes my stomach go crazy. LOL. too creamy..  But it was nice.. ^^  Will have it again but next time maybe..  We rushed back to the motel as we have to be checked out before 12pm. My room is a double room so I have to be checked out first. SO i left with a cab along with 3 others who hasn't packed their rooms yet. The rest of them walked back. I reached before noon and packed everything. Then we the rest came back, I realized something wasn't right~ Yian Yeen was missing! AIYOYO!!!!!
Panicked like mad.. called her and she was like on the way back alone lo! I asked you know the way?She replied. Err not really.. just walk and ask people lo! ==" I was OMG~ the guys took the bicycles and went searching for her. I ran cause I'm kinda oto short for the bike.. @.@ oops. Finally found her. Safe and sound.. luckily~ ^^
After checking that everything was packed adn nothing was left, we went downstairs to check out. That kind lady was understanding enough because we checked out slightly out of scheduled time due to our lost friend. haha.. Carried the heavy luggages back to jonker street but we stopped by at some small shop to get lunch because jonker's street food is over priced and not that nice.


Then they continued shopping for goods and I kinda lazied around cause i used up most of my energy running to look for Yian Yeen. Then I got hungry cause I didn't eat in the small shop due to my stomach being filled with mille crepe. ahhaha.. so i went loooking for cafes to take away a  sandwich. haha.. Coincidentally I met mei kee, jin yun, jia wen and sheau wen in some cafe I forgot what it was called. hahaha.. Such a small place. LOL.



  Finally it was time to go back to KL!!!!!!!! Long awaited moment cause I can't wait to sleep in the bus. So tired~~.. haha..  But the ticket had problems. It seems that it wasn't in the system. So stupid. after making a lot of fuss and a lot of talk here and there. They provided us with a very old junk bus to take us back to KL.. Snored in the bus and had enough time to restore the energy. Took a ride home in Brandon's car.  Finally home sweet home.. But I miss those times we had together and I appreciate God giving the most awesome bunch of people as my friends. Thank you and I love you guys so much. I hope we do this again soon. ^^ All the best in your studies my dear friends.. ^^

Photos credits to Jia Wen.. ^^ http://rhythmsandbluez.blogspot.com/ and Venisha. ^^