The worse Day of my life....

It all began with Chui Peng's birthday... they told me is from 6.30 till 9++. Just right after college i rushed home... Chit fei fetched me from home and went ee khin's hse then we went to sin nee's home. waited almost an hour... around 8 ony we left sin nee's home... walao.. we were speeding like mad.. almost 120km/h to serdang just to eat steamboat.. went park.. eat eat eat.. hungry like ma.d that time ed 9++.. Almost finish.. ngam ngam cut cake den.. kantoi.. my mom called and the usual. bla bla bla bla. so we speed home again.. this time ee khin drove chit fei's car... 130km/h almost reached 140.. fast like crazy... But not as fast as me.. ^^ lol... reached home around 11++.. I know you are worried.. but don't channel to anger can or not?? It makes me all stressed and upset lo... Haizzz....  wednesday ok liao lo.. then thursday.. water  splashing by seniors.. adui... We all got wet like mad.. OMG... played till around 5 plus then changed to dry clothes.. went in to the hall for leo club meeting.... cold like crazy... i kinda wet my pre u card as well... really bad day... left college around 6 lo... luckily serene was going home too so she gave me a ride to leisure mall where it is easier to take bus.. But unexpectedly... no bus.. waited for almost 45 minutes.. OMG... reach suntex around 7.25... walao.. rush for piano class which is at 7..30... then i reached home around 8.30.. OMG.... tired like mad.. do homework i think till around 11.30pm..  woke up at 4 to continue doing homework...  then... all hell broke lose... brandon fetched me to coll . when we almost reached connaught then only i realized i din bring my name tag... aikss.. too late.. cannot turn back liao... nvm.. continue journey... then.... i realize no name tag.... so no locker key..... no locker key.. no books...  then i thought to myself.. cheh... today lab mah.. nvm lo... then i realized.. no key=no locker=no lab coat... shit.. i message serene but no reply aiks.. so next contact was ivan.. hahaa... so i kinda messaged him oops.. luckily he say ok.. wa.. what a relieve... ^^ got lab coat... then chem no books.. nvm lo... then finish coll... CF... fun!!! balik from CF.. GG.... suan liao la... scold scold scold... walao.. i no feelings de meh?? keep scolding me like i am a piece of rock that she can  let her anger on..really i just wanna ask myself.. when will my heart turn to stone?? My heart has shattered before.. been hurt.. been stoned before.. but it melted and it wasn't cold anymore. now.. it might just turn to stone.. i really dun wanna get hurt anymore.. i might jus jump off a roof top.. its kinda depressing to be me... Although what i suffer is not as bad compared to other who suffer more but its a bit too much for me.... ><.... 

Who I am

Another week gone...

I wonder to myself sometimes whether or not I am good enough to be there... I just can't believe my results is so bad.. This is the first time that I got such bad results... I couldn't believe my eyes.. But its also because I didn't put much effort into studying.. I wasted three weeks of my holidays And I only started studying and revising on the last week.. Impossible.. But I actually did my best to study all I can and I left the rest to God... And God actually answered my prayer and granted me passing marks which are equivalent to what I studied and revised. I deserved such bad marks. But I also wanna give thanks to God for guiding throughout the times I studied and while I was doing my exams. But I also wanna give a BIG BIG THANKS to Sue yin/... tzi qing... jia wen.. mr tee.... ms charmaine.. and ms chia who actually went to college during the holidays to study with me.. guide me.. revise with me... really thanks lots.. and also kenny who  actually help em in maths and physics a lot too.. thanks thanks guys... I love you guys sooooo mucchhh.... wanna give u guys a big hug... ^^ but i can't la.. belanja u guys makan next time ok?? ^^

Wow.. the july intakes.. a.k.a julies... There are so many of them... lol...  And the nomination/voting of student council members.. Such a pity I didn't join... so sad.. I really really wanted to be a sc member...  But my friends thought I didn't wanna be one of the student council so they din bother putting my name in.. haiz... sad ness.... but my fren got in.. Abel Goon... ABel Goon all the way... ^^ hahhaa... so funnny... I hope he gets in though... Well i cant do anything about it now.. So wish everyone the best lo...

Well CF today is awesome... So many people... ^^... And the seniors came back.. ^^ to introduce us to the WAR GAMES!!! awesome.. its just literally people shoot and attack each other with their desired water weapons... haha... But i will be the medic marsyal... I'm only good at first aid stuff.. so kinda my thing.. Its not my thing to join wars.. hahaha...

I hope that I can concentrate more in my studies and stop thinking about nonsense anymore... I Must stop with all this nonsense in my brain.. NO MORE!!!!!!!!!  I'm really scared that I can't stop.. I'll pray and pray and pray.. I won't waste anymore precious time.. I will study.. I wanna be de best!!!! I wana change... I wanna change... I wanna be a better... A nicer... a friendlier person... A smarter and closer to God.. I wanna know more.....  wanna be of importance. Not just the girl who came and say hi.. or the very short chubby girl..

A songs that means something to me.....

I kinda feel related to this song.. It makes me feel so... I dunno... The feeling just cant be describe in words.. I hope people who listen to this song enjoys it as much as i do....

Everybody needs inspiration,

Everybody needs a song.

A beautiful melody,

When the night's so long.

Cause there is no guarantee,

That this life is easy.

Yeah when my world is falling apart.

When there's no light to break up the dark,

That's when I, I, I look at you.

When the waves are flooding the shore,

and I can't find my way home anymore.

That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,

I see forgiveness,

I see the truth.

You love me for who I am,

Like the stars hold the moon,

Right there where they belong.

and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,

When there's no light to break up the dark,

That's when I, I, I look at you.

When the waves are flooding the shore,

and I can't find my way home anymore,

That's when I, I, I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.

Just like kaleidoscope colors,

That cover me,

All I need,

Every breath that I breathe,

Don't you know you're beautiful!

Yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore,

and I can't find my way home anymore,

That's when I, I, I look at you.

I look at you, Yeah, Woah.

You, appear just like a dream to me.

Laura Story-Grace