After the up and down the roller coaster. I finally got an answer. An answer which I'm not proud of but I'm glad and I thank God for giving me 3B's in the exam even though I feel a little disappointed bout myself for not doing better. But I hope it'll lead me to the right path. It's a journey worth while for all the experience and people I met.
Well, recently I've been quite busy as I once again stepped my foot back into my secondary school life. At first I thought it would be the same but actually it's totally different path and totally different feeling. Especially the work load and the amount of stress. Despite spending 5 stressful yet enjoyable years, this past few weeks has been more dreadful than the last 5 years.Being a teacher is not all about entering the class, press buttons, talk crap and leave. It is actually based on experience which I don't have and really a lot of work. I took over one of the teacher's job as a class teacher. a form 3 science teacher, form 4 siviks teacher and a form 5 biology teacher. I also had to take up St John teacher advisor, red hse teacher advisor and not to mention prefect's teacher's assistant=discipline teacher. It's tiring to try to keep up with students who are smarter than me and students who are hyper yet don't know how to channel their energy in a good way.
The stress is on when everyone expects a lot from me since I was tokoh pelajar and tokoh kokurikulum yet, I may not be as perfect as they think. I depend on God's strength to get through everyday and I'm praying for this 3 months to be over soon. However, sometimes I just have this crazy feeling of why don't I becoem a teacher. Made new friends with the practical teachers and also new guru ganti and an old friend Anisah. But I just want it to end because it's very energy draining job.
Basically I have nothing much to mention for my brain is already jammed up with a lot of lesson plan and events. So yea, see ya next tiem. <3 p="">
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