I had it coming..

I knew if I told the truth... Nothing will be the same again.. And I'm right... It will never be the same.. Because it happens all the time! And this is not my first nor is it my second but it is more than that and this is the thing that hurt most. But i kinda developed something called don't care! I developed a skill which put smiles on my face when i cry inside. I developed new thoughts called It never happened! But this is all just a lie to keep my heart in tact and not let break into pieces.. But am I truly happy? Only time can tell... >,< Will I heal? NO! medicine? Not even the best or most expensive can heal me.. Not even when i try... So why do I bother trying when it is always broken? I should just have kept and let it go... and i guesss.. now is the best time... Its to end a suffering that caused my breakdowns and heartbreak... ><