Pre , Mids and Post exams..

Exams are finally over. What suppose to be the end is again a new beginning where i'm about to start all over but this time in a place I know well.. A place which I have befriended such good people. A place I can call home. ^^ There is nothing more precious than friends whom I treasure. People whom I have met through tough times who have helped me climbed the mountain and through the terrains.. I thank God for bringing me to Methodist College. It has been a tough 2  months of intense studying and revising. Despite so, I know I did do as well as I expected to but I hope the last minute revising and discussion helped even just a little. God gave me his strength wisdom and courage to continue this journey. I am weak but I became strong. I realize there are many things that I took for granted during this whole exam period. And I thought wrong bout some people. People whom I thought we're my friends, didn't even bother celebrating my birthday for me because it was exam period. Well can't u at least get a cupcake? Sorry? I tried to be understanding. But I know I thought wrong. But I thank God for letting me see who they really are. And what I am really to them. Because it is not worth my time anymore to help this person celebrate and to spend so much time planning for other people. I actually spared time for them and 5 minutes to them is wasting time to celebrate with me? I realize I shouldn't be stupid anymore. I thought if I give my heart, I would get heart. I guess all I got was wind. This was a challenge God gave me. I guess I screwed it up this time round. All I ask for is a simple appreciation. Is that so hard? being important to people is not what I should do. I should put God first  because God is the only one who did not push me away, who did not, not have time for me and who was always there beside me. I'm sorry God that I have put so many things before you. and only come to you when I need you..  Thank you to my family who has helped me and gave me so much time and effort to help me. I owe them so much..
Throughout the whole exams I made fatal mistakes for going out and spending not more than 8 hours per day studying. I only used 6 and sometimes 7 if I am in college. I know I have lost more precious time than anyone in the world.. So stupid of me.. It's a habit I have to change. But I messed up my room and my living room. notes and papers flying everywhere like war zone.. hahha. My table is full of sticky pad paper. writings and colourful highlighted stuff.. And also I found something while packing. haha.. brings back memories when I was chairperson  in St. John of my school.... .

   

hahaha.. Now it is all clean.. well at least I think it is... No picture cause mom sleeping there.. oopps.. there a lot of things I wanna talk about and anger which I wanna post. But somehow my instinct just told me that if I do say it and post it. I don't thik we would be friends anymore. So yea. From today on. I live for myself to serve God. Not serving others. Because to them I sound selfish. but did they ever look in the mirror? and did they reflect their image and look  at it? I know humans may be selfish but I'm not the only one. And I did not force nor promise anything. I just ask and I wanna express my own feeling. You promised and you broke it, it's not my fault. I agree it's my fault for asking last minute but it was almost 8 hours away. You said yes and I am to blame for you cancelling on me 2 hours before or 10 second before and 30 minutes later? Just reflect. I thought of having fun. But it just spoiled my whole day. I feel so bad for playing like crap due to bad stamina with Chee Lee.. hahaha. And yu xiang for listening me whine.. And sorry if you had to read this piece of crap.. ><